Going Through The Motions

It's seems like for months now that the title of this post describes my life. I don't know if it was that the timing of this baby was a surprise or that I have four other children to take care of, or that I'm just getting too old to be pregnant. This pregnancy has really been rough and I keep thinking that the light is just around the bend just to find that it is still out of reach. I still feel horrible eventhough I'm 18 weeks. Yes, I know that things are a little better because I can actually get out of bed and do things. Yet still it is a daily struggle to get out of bed and accomplish anything. I really feel and see the toll it is taking on my family. My kids are troppers but still dealing with a sick and tired mom that has no patience is no walk in the park! Josh is swamped at work trying to solve everyone's problems (litterally). He has had so many rapes of children and child abuse cases that they have really taken a toll on him. How do we get back on track because that is what it feels like. It feels like our train has derailed and we are using so much effort to move but make little progress.

Today I got my hair cut and colored and I brought the Ensign to read. I think I cried or at least teared up as I read every article. Yes, I know that I am hormonal but I know that it was mostly The Spirit. Elder Uchtdorf's talk was just what I needed. He spoke about how people, when they hit hard times sometimes try to go faster to try and make it through the rough spot faster. This is wrong. It is times like these that we need to slow down and focus on what is important. It was like music to my ears~ slow down and not go faster! We need to focus on our relationship with God, with our family, with our fellowmen and with ourselves. So, that is what I am going to do. Slow down and focus on what really matters until we can put this train back on track.

I am so thankful for the Gospel and for living prophets who recieve revelation for what we are going through today!

Ultrasound for Baby #5

We finally had an ultrasound to get a due date last week. I was 16 weeks so just one week farther than I thought. That gives us a due date of April 19!

I love the little feet!

Arm and leg

Profile shot!

Yes, baby #5 is boy #3. I was shocked! I was SO sure that is was a girl. We had a name picked out and we even built the house around it. With the girls having bigger rooms so that two could share and the two boys would have their own rooms. I mean I was positive. So it has taken a week to adjust to the fact that our last baby will be a boy. Yes, we've decided that this is the end of our family for my health and the well being of our family. So slowly I guess I will start to give away our little girl clothes. I mean I'm lucky that I had two of each sex going into the ultrasound. So... any good boy names :).

p.s. I won't be completely convinced until the second ultrasound next month!

Hello Old Friend, It's Bitter Sweet to See You Again!

On our travels this summer I picked up a little bug! It took me awhile to figure it out. Thanks goodness when we returned from our very last trip it finally hit me. I'm pregnant! I go to the doctor tomorrow to find our how far along I am but I think it's about 3 months so that means an April baby.

It was a shock even though we knew we weren't done having kids. The timing was a little off but the Lord knows all. I feel horrible which is normal for me. Throwing up is all I seem to do. No, none of the medicines work so it's just try and stay hydrated and wait it out. I have had wonderful help from family and friends which has been awesome. This kids are really excited about the baby and are always trying to help me feel better. We are excited to have another baby in the house.

NYC Day 2

Here are some pictures from Day 2 in New York City. We went to The Today Show, Fox News, saw Enrique Iglesias in concert and a lot of site seeing!

New York City Day One

Our first night we went to the opening night of Harry Connick Jr. He has always been a favorite of ours. He was amazing!

Harry himself

So excited to be there!

Here he is on stage!



After the show we were hungry and stopped at a place called Carve and had some of the best pizza ever!!!!

Regulators... Mount Up!!!

The last leg of our trip through New Mexico was to Lincoln County and Raton. It was beautiful. You would never know that you are in NM because it is so green there. Lincoln County is famous for the Lincoln County Wars. If you saw any of the Young Guns movies growing up then you know what I am talking about. This is what made Billy the Kid famous. Basically the man he was working for here was murdered and this is where he began to avenge his death.

Here is a picture of the Regulators. They were the group that road with Billy the Kid

This is the bullet hole where Billy shot the deputy and escaped from prison.

Kiddos pretending to be in jail.


A picture of Billy the Kid. This place was so cool and full of information. If you are a fan of the Old West then you need to go here! The town is small but you can walk and vist several of the orginal buldings from the time of the Lincoln County War.

Carlsbad Caverns

Our second stop on visting the Land of Enchantment was Carlsbad Caverns. I was amazed. They are quite beautiful. The girls really thought that it was cool. My Dad hadn't been there since he was a boy scout. Few tips for those who want to visit. It is always around 58 degrees year round there so bring a sweater or buy one there . It's really too dark to take pictures unless you have a low light lens. And invest in the hand held radios for the tour. They give you a lot of neat info. Take the elevator down. It saves you walking 1.5 miles and you don't miss a thing. You go down 700 ft in about a minute. It's crazy how your ears pop.

Much pretty in person.

Mom, Dad and Ali

One picture that wasn't too bad.


Overall I would say that it is a great family vacation spot!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!